Attention Deficit Dis…

This week in my education class we are learning about A.D.H.D. Which is pretty cool because I get to learn more about the disorder that I have been living with (not suffering from) since I was a child. The only problem is it is taking me forever to finish reading the chapter!

Well, I can’t say that every other chapter has been any easier to finish, because they haven’t. It is utterly frustrating. I know that I am perfectly able to finish each chapter in a timely fashion, but I don’t.

I can have all the motivation in the world to sit here and get this chapter read but my mind is all, “The lighting in the room is too dim/bright, the people outside need to shut up, the pictures in the textbook do not match what I am reading, my room is too messy, I should check Facebook, (sings song that has been stuck in head for a week), I need to get my nails done, I can’t believe I said/did that ___ years ago, I’ll just quickly check pinterest and wordpress, etc.”

I don’t even know if this makes sense, but that is okay because it is ridiculously hard to explain what it is like trying to study with A.D.D.

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The First of Many Posts

I have never really had a blog (unless you consider Tumblr a “real” blog). I have always liked the idea of having one, yet, every time I attempted to start one I hesitated. I would sit there looking at a computer screen trying to muster up enough courage to put myself out there and express myself, but I was younger and afraid to put myself out there. I felt as though I had nothing interesting or important to say. I felt as if I posted what I really thought, those words would come back to haunt me. I was afraid to show my ‘friends’ and my peers my true A.D.D and anxiety-ridden self;  I knew if i did I would be treated differently and, in high school, revealing that part of yourself is considered “social suicide”. So I left it alone and walked away, keeping all of my thoughts to myself tucked away where no one could see them. Now, years later, here I am. 

One may ask why I am choosing now to finally get around to creating the blog I’ve walked away from so many times before. Well, its simple really. I grew up. I have learned that the only person I need to impress is myself, because when you get down to it, all you have is you. 

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