Attention Deficit Dis…

This week in my education class we are learning about A.D.H.D. Which is pretty cool because I get to learn more about the disorder that I have been living with (not suffering from) since I was a child. The only problem is it is taking me forever to finish reading the chapter!

Well, I can’t say that every other chapter has been any easier to finish, because they haven’t. It is utterly frustrating. I know that I am perfectly able to finish each chapter in a timely fashion, but I don’t.

I can have all the motivation in the world to sit here and get this chapter read but my mind is all, “The lighting in the room is too dim/bright, the people outside need to shut up, the pictures in the textbook do not match what I am reading, my room is too messy, I should check Facebook, (sings song that has been stuck in head for a week), I need to get my nails done, I can’t believe I said/did that ___ years ago, I’ll just quickly check pinterest and wordpress, etc.”

I don’t even know if this makes sense, but that is okay because it is ridiculously hard to explain what it is like trying to study with A.D.D.

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I’m Back!

So, I did exactly what I said I would not do when I started this blog, which is go weeks on  end without posting anything. I have been so distracted with school, work and some personal issues that I just kind of forgot about my blog. But I am back and am determined not to neglect my blog any longer! So without further ado, here is a quick recap of what I have been up to this past month.

As you all may know, I am interning at my former high school and have been shadowing Mr. Dasilva, my old middle school teacher and sports coach. I am loving it so far, and have learned a lot already. Each day I am there, I am reminded why I chose the path that I did and am more motivated than ever to finish school.

Even though I am extremely motivated in advancing towards my goal, I sometimes lose that motivation when it comes down actually studying. As much as I love the courses I am taking, the amount of reading and papers I have to do drives me to the brink of insanity. Somehow I have managed to avoid having a complete mental break down when it comes to school, the same cannot be said for other aspects of my life, specifically in the relationship department. However, I am not going to address those issues at this moment. Actually, I most likely will never address them directly because I unfortunately need to be careful about how I discuss it. Don’t worry though, if you keep up with my posts you may be able to figure out what I am trying to say.

All in all, these past couple of weeks have been filled with many headaches and emotional ups and downs. If anything though, it is these ups and downs that have made me realize just how much I need to take some time out of my day to reflect on and appreciate everything that is going on in my life. In the words, of Ferris Bueller, “Life moves pretty fast, if you don’t stop and look around once in a while you could miss it”

I am starting to get on my own nerves

I have been “writing a paper” for the past couple of hours, and still I haven’t accomplished anything. It’s not like I am not trying to write this paper, it is just that every time I begin to focus on one aspect of this piece of literature I find another aspect that I could write about. Then when I have finally found what my focus will be, I know what I want to write about but I can’t seem to get the words out. So then I think about it and convince myself that I need to find a new focus point and then the cycle beings all over again. I don’t even realize I am doing it until I glance at the clock and realize that I have wasted an hour or two.

I have all of these great ideas swarming around in my head. But as soon as I put pen to paper they all want to escape at the same time causing my brain to go on overdrive and then just completely crash.

IT IS SO FRUSTRATING!

 

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