Attention Deficit Dis…

This week in my education class we are learning about A.D.H.D. Which is pretty cool because I get to learn more about the disorder that I have been living with (not suffering from) since I was a child. The only problem is it is taking me forever to finish reading the chapter!

Well, I can’t say that every other chapter has been any easier to finish, because they haven’t. It is utterly frustrating. I know that I am perfectly able to finish each chapter in a timely fashion, but I don’t.

I can have all the motivation in the world to sit here and get this chapter read but my mind is all, “The lighting in the room is too dim/bright, the people outside need to shut up, the pictures in the textbook do not match what I am reading, my room is too messy, I should check Facebook, (sings song that has been stuck in head for a week), I need to get my nails done, I can’t believe I said/did that ___ years ago, I’ll just quickly check pinterest and wordpress, etc.”

I don’t even know if this makes sense, but that is okay because it is ridiculously hard to explain what it is like trying to study with A.D.D.



I am starting to get on my own nerves

I have been “writing a paper” for the past couple of hours, and still I haven’t accomplished anything. It’s not like I am not trying to write this paper, it is just that every time I begin to focus on one aspect of this piece of literature I find another aspect that I could write about. Then when I have finally found what my focus will be, I know what I want to write about but I can’t seem to get the words out. So then I think about it and convince myself that I need to find a new focus point and then the cycle beings all over again. I don’t even realize I am doing it until I glance at the clock and realize that I have wasted an hour or two.

I have all of these great ideas swarming around in my head. But as soon as I put pen to paper they all want to escape at the same time causing my brain to go on overdrive and then just completely crash.




Where Did All the Fun People Go?

I am so tired of talking to someone only to have them constantly check their phones and answer with the occasional, “mmhmm”. Oh, I’m sorry. Am I interrupting your social life by trying to hold a face-to-face conversation with you? Why even bother leaving the house if all you are going to do is be glued to your phone instead of acknowledging the life that is happening around you? There is so much more to life than keeping up with what is happening on social media, but we are just too worried about how many people like our pictures or how many people follow us to actually enjoy and appreciate everything this world has to offer. Adventure and fun is out there. So put the phone down for a while. Talk and engage with the people who are in front of you and just experience life! 

When is it enough?

Is it when you’ve finished your glass?
Is it when you’ve finished the bottle?
Is it when you’ve fallen down?
Is it when you’ve blacked out?
Is it when you’ve made yourself sick?

Or is it when you’ve worn your body down to the point of no return, leaving your family with no other option than to watch as you slowly drift away?

So tell me, when does it all become enough?