I am so tired of talking to someone only to have them constantly check their phones and answer with the occasional, “mmhmm”. Oh, I’m sorry. Am I interrupting your social life by trying to hold a face-to-face conversation with you? Why even bother leaving the house if all you are going to do is be glued to your phone instead of acknowledging the life that is happening around you? There is so much more to life than keeping up with what is happening on social media, but we are just too worried about how many people like our pictures or how many people follow us to actually enjoy and appreciate everything this world has to offer. Adventure and fun is out there. So put the phone down for a while. Talk and engage with the people who are in front of you and just experience life!
Is it when you’ve finished your glass?
Is it when you’ve finished the bottle?
Is it when you’ve fallen down?
Is it when you’ve blacked out?
Is it when you’ve made yourself sick?
Or is it when you’ve worn your body down to the point of no return, leaving your family with no other option than to watch as you slowly drift away?
So tell me, when does it all become enough?
I have never really had a blog (unless you consider Tumblr a “real” blog). I have always liked the idea of having one, yet, every time I attempted to start one I hesitated. I would sit there looking at a computer screen trying to muster up enough courage to put myself out there and express myself, but I was younger and afraid to put myself out there. I felt as though I had nothing interesting or important to say. I felt as if I posted what I really thought, those words would come back to haunt me. I was afraid to show my ‘friends’ and my peers my true A.D.D and anxiety-ridden self; I knew if i did I would be treated differently and, in high school, revealing that part of yourself is considered “social suicide”. So I left it alone and walked away, keeping all of my thoughts to myself tucked away where no one could see them. Now, years later, here I am.
One may ask why I am choosing now to finally get around to creating the blog I’ve walked away from so many times before. Well, its simple really. I grew up. I have learned that the only person I need to impress is myself, because when you get down to it, all you have is you.